GIRL CHILD .. infanticide .. forfeit marriage ..

Alas, Miss. Pooja Chopra, Femina Miss India World 2009 could not win.
I feel sad. But I feel ecstatic for what she has achieved.

My interest in her began not with her pretty face but with her tears that rolled down her cheeks when she was writhing in pain but still standing tall on podium representing INDIA. She cried in surprise for been the one of the semifinalist. 
And I wanted to know more about her after I saw that she is up for a CAUSE named SAVE GIRL CHILD. That intrigued me all the more.

When I read her blog I was so taken aback.

Her Father then a Commander in Indian Navy wanted this small lil princess of 20 days to be dead because she was the second girl child.
I smile in disgust.

Her mom loved her so much that she walked out of the marriage just to raise her two lovely daughters.

And now look at Pooja.. She has made her mother proud. But more than her achievement, I feel proud of her mothers undeterred  determination and love for her daughters that made her what she did.

Now thinking of Pooja I float in happiness :)

May all find courage and energy to live life the way they want.

fleeting thot......

I just had to write down this fleeting thought before it leaving my world of enormous count of thoughts.
I was thinking what makes one feel in love???
Ummm .. mebbe hormones ... mebbe just a self created feeling to have that feeling-good factor .. God knows..
But one thing I know is that we all fear changes in feeling.
We always wait with abated breath for that excitement to touch our lives forever.
May life be rosy forever. Shyaaa .. but does it really happen?
For some it happens for all their life , for some it fades in a moment.

I dunno as to why I'm writing this. Am I in love ? No idea.

We realise in a moment that we are in LOVE and the very next moment we grow out of it .. Self - doubt , behavioural analysis .. blah blah blah and result is trampled n rusted LOVE .. two sides of everything .. even love is not spared. We live in that rusted love with eyes full of doubt and heart with little bit of distrust. We go on without expressing to the core and it fades away. We just have only one thing to be said to ourselves ' Had I tried expressing myself a l'il more' .. Is self-expression so DIFFICULT ... ouch .. it truly is for me :)

Darn this stoic and stolid love .. Well Well Well .. no place for this discomfort and we move on

C'est La Vie ..

Yet we hope for that perfect LOVE ..
I love irony :)

mana janaab ne pukara nahi :D

Mana janaab ne pukaara nahi
kya mera saath bhi gawaara nahi
muft main ban chal diye tan ke
Wallah jawab tumhara nahi :P

I love songs and especially these kinds where the guy pataofies his girl with some solid filmy aashiqana.

I can relate to many many many many songs whilst crossing Andheri bridge.

Guy while waiting for his girl :

Intehaan ho gai intezaar ki ..
aayi na kuch khabar mere yaar ki
yeh hume hai yakeen bewafa woh nahi fir wajah kya hui
Intezaar ki..

When his girl arrive:

Tum aa gaye ho noor aa gaya hai
nahi toh chiraagon se lau jaa rahi thi

LOL .. bollywood is jus fantastic .. they have song for each n every occasion ..
i love bollywood.. n i love my india..
I LOVE MY INDIA .. I LOVE MY INDIA .. again i got a song ..
WATAN MERA INDIA
KARAM MERA INDIAAAAA..

Then the love birds look into each others eyes so deeply that even an opthalmologist wont look so closely :P

But then this is magic of look that no one can evade or ignore ..

A look that blasts ones mind
kills ones thinking
makes one dumb
makes one go mad mad mad
and then blind in love :)

is par bhi ek gaana :

Ishaaron Ishaaron main dil lene wale
bata yeh hunnar tune sikha kahan se
(duh .. this from kashmir ki kali ..)

then the girl looks at her watch and his boy looks at her as he never wants her to go

girls sings :

Dhal gaya din hogai raat jaane do jaana hai :D

Boy sings:

der se aana jaldi jaana aye sahab yeh thik nahi ..

she giggles and is coy , she again waits for some time .. again the medley of songs

she says firmly that she wants to leave
he again sings

ruk jaa o jaane wali ruk jaa .. main toh rahi teri manzil ka :)

but ladki kitna der ruk sakti hai .. n most importantly medley has to end ..
even musicians sometimes must be getting bored of songs ..

she leaves .. poor guy keeps his eye fixed on his girl till the time she either is not seen or catches some mode of travelling

kaate nahi cut te din yeh raat
kehni thi tumse jo dil ki baat

la la la la la la la

Pyaar hume kis mod pe le aayaaaaaaaaaaa
ke dil kare hai koi toh bataye kya hoga :D

i m musical now .. i better stop this post :D

yaar bina chain kahan re
pyaar bina chain kahan re
sona nahi chandi nahi yaar toh mila arre pyaar karle :P

khaike paan banaras wala :D

Arrey bhang ka rang jamaa ho chakaa chak
Phir lo paan chabaay

Arrey aisa jhatka, lage jiya pe
Punar janam hoi jaay

O khaaike paan banaaras wala 
Khul jaaye band akal kaa taala

Phir to aisa kare kamaal
Seedhi kar de sabki chaal

This song always starts playin in my mind whenevr i remember my trip to Benares ..
What a trip .. Simply Awesome ..
Sisters Wedding doubled up the FUN ..

Travelling in train n eieeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkks that too in II class sleeper for almost 28 hrs ..
it was nice as it was night time .. but as the darkness was getting shooed away by bright sun light ..
Train took the shape of oven and we looked like some Stinking Pigs in for bake ..
alll the while in afternoon in afternoon i was in serious COMA .. just waiting for evening to come ..
every second of afternoon ticked after one light year .. damn i was getting so restless for evening to come ..
Some how i reached Kashi Station .. it was so breezy at 5 in morning at stn ..
wow i was out of Coma :D .. Reached my place ..
Attended my cousins sis marriage .. with all sangeet n mehndi n haldi .. n n n n n wat not ..
So many rituals to do .. jus to get married :D ..

I WAS EXCITED TO REACH GANGA GHAT N MORE FOR BOAT RIDE .. oo maajhi re .. wow :D

Got up early in morning at 4 .. left home at 5 ..
struggled to convince rickshaw wala ( cycle wali rickshaw sorry reksha .. thats wat locals call it )
to take me to vishwanath galli
(famous for Thuggus sitting in shop more than anything :P) for 25 rs..
i kn I was  FOOLED .. 25 Rupaiyya eeka baat hui :D ..
Reksha jab chali tab aisan lagal ki hummar dehiyaan ki hadii - pasli ek hojaee  ..
Darn ride was so bumpy .. i was sitting like a jet pilot ; ready for fall or to shoot from seat :D  ..
haan to ab main pahunch gayi .. reached finally ..

Way  to Ghat was like some walk on terrorist land  full of land mines .. mines wer GOBAR ..
jahan dekho wahan gobar .. while on my way i hummed ..
babuji dheere chalna gobar se zara sambhalnaa ...
finally reached GHAT .. PRAYAG GHAT ( one of Ghats of Ganga .. in one hop one lands on another Ghat .
they are so close )
I thot it wud be nice cool , breezy ,life givin ... aaaarrrgghhhh i was in for so sun bath ..
damn at 6 in morning it felt like noon ..

There were pandits , pandals , dogs, yes i cudnt see a single cat on Ganga Ghat surprising,
marigolds around
while getting down on the stair case .. Stalls (local word : thelas) on left and right .. selling same stuff ..
but it was such pleasant sight to see colorful bangles , foto frames , sindoor dibbi .. nice ..
somethings jus remain the way they have to be n still nvr loses its vanity ..
this makes me want to live more .. :) ..

There i was jus sitin and watchin ppl of Banaras and some like me and some Guests ..

Bright Golden Sky
With Goldenish Red Sun
Birds Chirping , flying

Wow Felt so awesome .. Banaras my Birth place :) ..

arre awa inha baitha .. someone screamed from downstair .. i looked arnd to see that dumb fella ..
then he s sayin blatantly .. nahana hai toh samaan yahan rakh di jiye ..
i kn it is ok .. since many ppl go for bath ther but i felt queasy and lil embarassing .. yieksss ..

waited for my dad and mausaji to finish their public bath ..
good that they returned very soon as i was getting roasted .. it was so scorching at 6 in morn ..

the WOW part of Ganga Ghat ... BOAT RIDE .. first of all i ll show the pic of the person who rowed the boat ..
he looks like CHIP of Chip n Dale :D ..



maintained his cool while rowing the boat as mom was so restless on boat;
she was hopping from one end to other scaring my elder sis ..
:) it almost felt as if boat is about to tumble ..
GOD I NEED TO LEARN SWIMMING .. i jus prayed that we shdnt fall ..
it was so pleasant to be in boat .. n play with water ..i kn it might sound filmy :D ..

got off the boat ..
traced the same staircase to go upstairs .. passed land mines again ..

settled in a hotel .. small crampy but the smell of samosas wer so appetising .. yummy ..
n left for my place .. this was my time at ganga ghat ..

One should go to Benares atleast once in their life ..

Should WE behave like dogs with intruders

Wow , I simply love Dogs .. they make life so complete.
It was the same mundane day for me getting up ,going to office, working while sleeping and sleeping while working [:D] , reporting , leaving , travelling in trains like some chickens in the chicken Van [:D] .. walking back home .. Poof !! .. My Day has become like some kind of flowchart and i been the executable ... On reaching home watch TV like a zombie .. while surfing channels my ear picked up word 'QASAB' .. so i thot that I should listen to some of it n then back to soap..

Wow !! I felt patriotic then...

Suddenly my Dog ran at ligtening speed towards the balcony and started barking his lungs out .. i was like 'ghar pe bhi chain nahi' ; his continous barking irked me to no end so i decided to check wats happening down ..
when i went down i saw my lovely protective dogs of locality were were growling at some other dog(read intruder dog alias ID ) ..
with the help of watch men that dog was saved since they drew him out of society ... i peacefully came back to home .. draggged my self to the settee .. n resumed to the news channel ...
i cud see Qasab as an Intuder Dog and we as the local Dog ..
wat we did to him when he and his troop entered our area .. forget about sniffing him as dog (dont take litearlly ) we did not even had some suspiciousness abt the gang who comes via sea n that too with Big Big bags and looking typical that from
... we guys kn from wher :D .. and plus i dont wish to be in jail :D


why the locals did not do something ,
Had we been so alert and suspicious like dogs, this day hadnt become a stigma on our Defence System.

Last Word And the lesson that i learnt,
Once in suspicion abt someone or something inform the right people ,stay alert and pass on the message to others to be alert.

after all sharing a word doesnot cost nething :D ..

Non-Sense is sometimes Sense :D

hi ,
it was the same routine i was following in the office. I was checkin my mails ..
and i came across one fwd email from my fren .. boring caption but still managed to instigate my curiosity .. the caption was some letter to dad ..
before starting the reading i assumed that this will again be some stupid affair-based letter where daugther is eloping with her bf n so on .. dad reding the letter teary eyed n jus begging to god in his mind .. ohh god the f*** has happened ..
i felt so proud of my prediction which made grow an inch taller .. lol ...

the my-delight-part of the story is
A father passing by his teenage daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and Everything was neat and tidy. Then he saw an envelope propped up prominently on the centre of the pillow. It was addressed "Dad". With the worst premonition, he opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:-

Dear Dad,
It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you, but I'm leaving home. I had to elope with my new boyfriend Saim because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you.
I've been finding real passion with Saim and he is so nice to me. I know when you meet him you'll like him too - even with all his piercing, tattoos, and motorcycle clothes.

But it's not only the passion Dad, I'm pregnant and Saim said that he wants me to have the kid and that we can be very happy together. Even though Saim is much older than me (anyway, 42 isn't so old these days is it?), and has no money, really these things
shouldn't stand in the way of our relationship, don't you agree?

Saim has a great CD collection; he already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. It's true he has other girlfriends as well but I know he'll be faithful to me in his own way. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too. Saim taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt
anyone and he'll be growing it for us and we'll trade it with our friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Saim can get better; he sure deserves it!!

Don't worry Dad, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren. Your loving daughter,

Rosie.



but when i saw this line i was in for the toss ...

At the bottom of the page were the letters
"PTO".

i burst into laughter n almost thought for a while .. that we TAKE SHORT-TIMED SORROWS SO SERIOUSLY that we forget that theres more to life than this ..
the following part is

Hands still trembling, her father turned the sheet, and read:

PS: Dad, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbour's house. I just wanted to
remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk centre drawer

Please sign it and call when it is safe for me to come home.

I love you


i loved this ending ..

as kid even i used to hide my report crds n papers .. but this cud be an ultimate shot to ne of our parents with weak heart (literally) ..

LIFE'S SO MUCH FUN .. with mischievous memories :D